My Life with DID – Part 2

Welcome to the second part of my post about DID. So, let’s talk about the alters. Most people with DID have a name for their system (this means the primary + alters) – I don’t have a name for my system. I don’t think I’ll ever have a name for them but each alter has…

My Life with DID – Part 1

It’s been ages since I updated my blog. Since the last post, I’ve grown older, wiser (I think) and a pandemic had occurred. Every country is in lockdown and while it’s something new for most people I know, it isn’t for me. The only thing I can be thankful for during the lockdown is that…

Part Two

At least that’s the last part for me. But, for everyone else it’s just the beginning. I realised I’ve successfully transferred my pain and anguish onto all of those who love me. The last people I ever wanted to hurt, but at the time, I couldn’t think clearly and all I knew was that I…

Part One

I never posted much on mental health day or awareness week, because I believe mental health disorders/issues need to be talked about every day. It’s uncomfortable for a lot of people, but it’s a much needed conversation to have amongst family and friends, coworkers, even strangers. A few posts on my social media accounts reminded…

Falling Back In Love With Myself

For a long while, my life was about aggressively working towards elevating myself – a high position in an International company (got it, hated it), casual relationships (fun, but felt alone at the end of the day), a beautiful apartment (comfy but it wasn’t home, if that makes sense). All this to be liked, loved,…

Childfree by Choice

I’m turning 39 this year, unmarried, and obvs no children. Every year, I’ve a few married friends and relatives asking me (ALWAYS from women) – “When are you getting married?” “Don’t you want to start a family?” “You’re not a woman until you have a baby or two.” When I tell people that I don’t…

Don’t Let Your Past or Trauma Define You

The things that hurt you, that caused you pain don’t define you. Nothing that broke you, caused you the most intense damage, deserves the right to define who you are. They are things that happened to you, that evolved you as a person that changed you, but they still don’t get the right to define…

Conversations with My Alters

I have hardened for a reason. There is pain inside. It hurts to let you in. I’m scared of being seen. Yet I long for you to see me. I need to know I’m safe. I need to feel your love. I’ll never let you hurt me again! Once upon a grief stricken word she…

Seek Validation within Yourself

Most of us carry so amazing dreams within ourselves. Dreams that can positively change many lives. Dreams that can make us feel alive and vibrant. Dreams for which we were born. In recent years, I realise no matter where we are right now in our lives, we know deep inside that we have this unspoken…

Stop Abusing Yourself

If you were in a relationship with yourself (and the way you treat/talk to yourself), would you consider it abusive? Would you look at yourself and consider it lucky that you have such an amazing partner, or cringe? Cringe, because you know, if you were truly honest, you wouldn’t date yourself. I spent a large…